This is the time for reflection as it's the ending of another year. I've grown and in a sense healed since a year ago. 2020 was a difficult year. Between the toxic relationships and moving around my mental state wasn't the best. The suicide attempts and hospitalizations spent most of my time in turmoil. I don't want to dwell on it or really go into detail but to look at how far I've come.
Since Dec 2020 I have been living in Texas with friends who care deeply about me. They got me out of the turmoil I was in and gave me a place to live. For this I'm truly grateful 🙏. I transitioned everything over smoothly to Texas unlike last time it was a headache and all screwed up. With in a year I have stayed and consistently taken my meds. With that being said I did have an episode where I ended up in the hospital do to an overdose. With doctors pointing out that meds aren't full proof. That even on them I'm prone to have blackouts during high stress and may attempt but knowing this I can better manage my health. While I've had my emotional ups and downs. I've been stable enough to get a job which again I am grateful 🙏. I'm back to having a life and not sitting at home being a lump on a log doing nothing and being bored daily. I have a car, I'm surrounded by people who care for me and have people who love me, I have a roof over my head, an emotional support animal who loves me dearly and without her I don't know what I'd do. I have a job that I love and enjoy. And most of all I'm finding myself removing all the static in my life and the noise that isn't me.
Going forward this next year will be a year of self development. Striving to be a better me mentally, physically, and spritiually. Along with learning to cherish the positive traits and accepting the negative. The song that sums up this year and my life at the moment is Karma by AJR. While they question whether to continue to be good in the next year. That is something that will never change for me. My heart is gold my soul is pure and my conscience is clear.
I will end on this a blessing for the new year. I banish all negativity from this past year as it no longer serves me. I welcome in the new year with love, peace, and abundance to all I come into contact with. May the new year be full of laughter, love, peace, and happiness. I accept this blessing as above so below as I will it so mote it be.