Engaging with the intricate dance of procrastination has become a defining aspect of my creative journey. Delving into this topic is particularly relevant today, given the noticeable gap since my last post. The root cause isn't solely the intrusion of life's demands but also the familiar embrace of procrastination. However, this phenomenon extends beyond the realm of crafting blog entries. My experiences reveal a multifaceted reluctance that manifests in various forms—a feeling of exhaustion, lack of inspiration, uncertainty about where to commence, and questioning the relevance of my content. While these sentiments are directly linked to my blog updates, they are not exclusive to this platform or its weekly cadence.
The last two weeks I've been procrastinating on life, hobbies, interests, and so much more. Depression doesn't help even though I'm not deep down in the dump, depressed. There is some depression on the scale I'd say it's about a 4 overall. Weather hasn't helped which throws in the fibromyalgia pain which adds to the depression too. I have a psych appointment at the end of April and am going to address this with them.
Recently, I confided in my mother about a sentiment that has been on my mind—I yearn for the return of my manic phases. These periods were marked by heightened energy levels, a sense of achievement, and increased productivity. Admittedly, my tendency to multitask during these phases wasn't always the most efficient, but it made me feel incredibly accomplished. In response, my mother rightly pointed out that this state isn't conducive to long-term well-being. I am fully aware of the health implications, yet I can't help but miss the vibrant energy that accompanied those moments. As a new month dawns and a fresh week begins, I hold onto the optimism of new beginnings and the promise of brighter days ahead.
The key to overcoming these challenges lies in improved time management and a shift in habits. This entails pushing myself to take action even when motivation is lacking. While procrastination can sometimes serve a purpose, excessive reliance on it, much like other aspects in life, can have adverse effects. It's a valuable lesson in finding the balance between leveraging procrastination strategically and avoiding its pitfalls.