Emotional freedom from past wounds can be invigorating. Last year I was able to heal from childhood trauma. In doing so it has strengthened and helped my relationship with my parents. Since as long as I can remember I have had voices that no one else can hear. But apparently it isn't just voices but it is also a distortion of reality.
I remember my childhood being filled with verbal, physical, and emotional abuse. However, last year I was able to talk to my mom about my reality growing up and while she doesn't remember everything due to her own mental illness, she apologized, if my memory of childhood is correct and it wasn't just the voices. While my current diagnosis of schizo effective disorder is in my chart it makes me wonder had I come clean about the voices would my diagnosis still be the same today.
It wasn't until 2018-2019 did I come clean about the voices because I grew up in fear that I would be institutionalized and never see the outside world again. That fear was instilled not just because of the media but I believed what the voices were telling me. Since the medication has helped this last year and being able to openly talk with my parents about the trauma it brought closure and healing. I no longer have ill feelings toward my parents but a greater understanding of my illness and love for them. While there are still some things that I need to work on so it doesn't interfere with future relationships and life. It will continue to be a work in progress.