So, it's been awhile since I've written about my life or even made a post here. Life has been happening and it's been one hell of a fucking roller-coaster ride. Not only has it been an emotional ride but life has taken me where I least expect it to go. This ride isn't one I've wanted to be on and while I have tried in the past to end things it hasn't succeeded.
This last year has been one of the hardest years I've lived. Here I thought that the move to Texas would be good for me and while it was, it was also short lived. I couldn't work, living situation was bad, wasn't able to pay bills, and on top of that I let my emotions run the show. Can I just say love sucks! Especially when it isn't reciprocated back. Plus, not being medicated didn't help my issues. I can't remember ever talking deeply about my mental health but it has been an issue. Last year I planned on getting off this roller coaster ride, to the point of planning I sold or threw away almost absolutely everything I owned. I even went so far as to plan how I was going to get off this ride.
Well, as you can see it didn't pan out I never went through with it. I sold or threw away my possessions for nothing. While looking back I kinda regret it but it made moving a little easier. Some things can be replaced and while others can't be replaced it wasn't in the cards for me to keep them and might be for a reason too. I'll slowly replace what can be replaced and not worry about the things I can't replace.
Good news is I'm still here and the ride hasn't been so bad since I got back on medications though it's a different cocktail it seems to be helping. I'm now living back with my parents. Though things could be better with my activity level my emotional well being has greatly improved and so has my living situation. Financially, I'm doing a whole lot better than I was last year. While I hate being single and all I've decided I need to focus on myself and improve myself before I mix with anyone. I'm hoping I can share my journey with you all and hope it can inspire others to not ignore mental health issues.