Well, 2023 is coming to an end. As I reflect on the year, some content I will be talking about Facebook might flag it. So, to avoid my page from getting in trouble I will post my thoughts here and then share this to my Facebook page.
It has been a year since I moved back to Missouri and back in with my parents. This year has been one of my best years since 2007. Mentally, emotionally, physically, financially, and probably spiritually things have been a big improvement in 16 years.
For the first time I've been mentally stable and emotionally well. As I've posted before my medicine change has improved this and so far is keeping steady. I haven't dealt with severe depression or suicidal thoughts or ideations in a year. I'm happier than I have been in 16 years. I haven't dealt with voices or personality changes in a year.
With the improvement of my mental and emotional stability my relationship with my parents has been the best in years. It probably also helped that I cut ties with negativity. I also took this year to cut my social media apps I'm no longer part of Instagram, X, Pinterest, Snapchat, and LinkedIn.
Physically, last I checked I lost weight since being back home. Been managing my diabetes, cut my smoking down and while I thought I was ready to fully quit smoking, I wasn't. Which brings me to things I tried doing this year but found that it wasn't for me. I tried to be a travel agent and own my own business. However, I ended it as the cost and results weren't worth it for me. While I want to work, I discovered working isn't probably for me as I'm on disability for a reason. I spent four months stressing about the cost going out and no income coming in to compensate for what was going out. This in turn wasn't good for my mental or emotional health.
Financially speaking this year has been better than it has been in years. I'm able to not only cover my monthly expenses like phone and rent but I'm not struggling to buy cigarettes or things I want. While I wasn't able to fully save as much as I wanted this year.
I will be starting 2024 with $13 dollars in savings and $123 dollars in my investment accounts. I have accomplished creating a will, advance directive, and preparing for the future. I have my budget created for 2024 and 2025 and know it may be tweaked from month to month going forward. While it may feel like I am not successful as my hopes to work and own my own business wasn't fruitful. I didn't blog as much as I felt I should have. I felt pressured to post and try making money on it but I wasn't able to accomplish that either. I know I am not a failure as I am managing my life and being successful in that. Not only have I been successful but I am able to have a pet. My kitten Jack has been a blessing from the Goddess and he has been the light of my world. She allowed me to not only save him from death like his siblings encountered but to allow my parents to let me keep him.
I know so many people are dreading the new year. I however have a different perspective on the coming year. I'm excited and hopeful as I normally am when the year ends. The new year just like a new month brings a clean slate. There is a first for everything at the beginning of the year. First selfie, shower, meal, sleep, and so much more. It's about celebrating another year of life to fulfill. To set goals and see what we can accomplish in a new year. With that being said my goal this coming year will be to save more money, not cash out on my points until I absolutely need to, and continue to improve my health. I won't pressure myself to post on my blog but use it as a way to deal with thoughts and reflect. I hope everyone enjoyed their holidays and will have a blessed new year. I hope you will share and continue to follow my journey.